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Name: MS`HAMBZ
Location: Vancouver, Canada
Gender: Female
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Member Since:
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| * .. | A shattered love that yields deadly scars - You know exactly who you are - I don't know what it is I'll do - but one day I'll make you see it too - that it was You all along, it was always You. * 4 b3tt32 0r 4 w0rs3 , till the very end - That was YouAndMe , since it all began. |
If only I had the right frame of mind
I'd be thinking straight,
But I realize that I'm blinded
By the way things materialized
Right before my eyes.
Truth be told, I'm a dead soul.
Going back to the way it's been
I was always a half, never whole.
Yes, I was broken. I was a lyricist
Always revoking all the past memories
That burned my heart.
Couldn't find the right verse
To speak my mind, but now I'mma start
It's about time that I'm emerging
From the depths of my quarters,
I used to be submerging, but now
I'm a Fighter.
And I work harder to stay above the water.
Got no choice, so I gotta take control.
It's still my Life, somehow I gotta fight it,
These feelings in my sight.
Some days I'm still in turmoil
Burnt out from the past shit
That once got my world tangled
Can't seem to forget it
'Cause my heart's still in shackles
I'm a captive that's bound,
By this heart of mine, still lost in time
A Prisoner of my love,
This Deadly Love that will not subside.
- 10.01.09
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| No, you'll never realize
What you have
Until it's gone.
And fuck,
It was there.
And then it wasn't.
There was something missing.
Then again,
There's always something missing;
We always want
What we can't have
And some of us
-- The crazy ones --
Want what is no good for us
It's no good to cry
It's no good to feel this pain
And yet
You still go through it
Because at the end of the day
You think:
"Who knows. Maybe it's all worth it."
But then again, maybe it's not.
So many people have told you otherwise.
They've told you:
Avoid the Drama BS
Don't let anyone give you that shit
And even when your closest friends and your family
Told you to stop,
You just couldn't do it.
Are you stupid?
Maybe.
But one thing's probably true:
You're addicted.
You don't know why.
Maybe because,
You're used to this pain?
This emotionality?
This drama BS it brings you?
Or you're just addicted to the drug itself
'Deadly Love'
It can destroy you
And cause severe harm to those around you
You may feel invincible
But you're nothing but WEAK,
Weak for something that's lethal,
Something that will get the best of you,
And will eventually kill you.
You fight for something that might not even be there anymore,
You do things that go unappreciated
You go crazy out of your mind
You love with all your heart, body, and soul,
Then you cry when it's not what you want,
But one day it's there,
And it gives you that high you're looking for,
And then the cycle repeats itself.
It's a drug.
Most definitely.
And you're a fuckedup case
Clearly you can't discern
What's good for you
You're addicted..
To that fuckedup personality
Those ridiculous antics
Those boyish charms
Those things you could only get
From one source
You're addicted..
To that all-time high
And are crazy enough
To live through your all-time lows
Just to have a taste of it again...
It hurts
To know
You're just a prop to him.
He takes advantage of you
Whenever he gets the chance
But still
It doesn't matter,
He's got you hooked.
Even when you're not with him,
He's everywhere.
You see him when you close your eyes
And when you open them
You can still hear his voice
You can still smell his scent
You can still feel him almost anywhere you go
Even if you don't want to.
You want to leave,
You want to get away from it
Because you just want to
Be
Normal.
HE MAKES YOU ABNORMAL.
He loved you once.
But not anymore.
You just can't accept reality
And that's why
You're going crazy
Over something that's out of your control.
You fucked up
He fucked up
Now time to move on
And not think about it anymore.
But you still do.
He still drives you fucking insane
He still makes you crave
That "high" ,
But too late,
IT'S GONE.
FUCK YOU, WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO ME?
It's like when I hear your voice
The way you say hi
When you call my name
It hits me.
It all comes back.
It isn't even my choice.
You messed me up
Pretty damn good
So that I can't see straight
When I'm thinking of you
Common Sense flies out the window
Your lies become the truth
Even when I know they're just lies
You don't love me
You say you do
But you don't.
. . . . .
Who am I kidding?
All because of that promise you made to me
Living on hopes and dreams
But no more of this.
I'm G O N E .
` P.S. I'll Be Waiting - Lenny Kravitz
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| It's the way she feels
Although you acted like you cared, she still
Needs to feel that you're there,
But you're not
You're still the reason she bleeds
On the inside and out
She's messed up to the point that
People don't know whether she's happy or sad
She has her whole life ahead of her,
But she put it to the side for you
And she never wanted it to be this way...
She knows she has to leave it all behind
But she can't seem to get away
You really strangled her mind
She's unable to concentrate
A bird kept from flying free
With you, she cannot love nor hate
She's lost her mind.
Lost in the world she's living in,
Lost in the way things are becoming,
Lost in translation are the thoughts she's thinking,
She's a lost cause for salvation 'cause all she knows is,
You're the reason why she's like this,
And you don't even know it...
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Life is built up of little things- these end up amounting to so much more, as we grow up and realise that we are missing something. usually, that something we are missing in our lives, as small as it may be, can make a load of difference. so, why sweat the small stuff? because in the end, it's the small stuff that matters more than the big stuff. we often take the small stuff for granted, so we miss out on opportunities, big or small. some things seem small & insignicant to one person, but could mean the world to another.
you can never really tell. life is about the small things. live life so that everyday, you feel like you have made a difference in someone's world.
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there are times in life where we feel as though we're surrounded by our own wilderness with no one to help, no one to understand our pain or what we're going through, and so we tough it out ON OUR OWN.
but despite it all, life just doesn't work that way. we can't let the wilderness get us down. our walls will be torn down & our hearts will be broken. but along the way, we encounter the ones who will always stick around & stay by your side when no one else gives a damn. it's when the going gets tough- that's when they help you get back up.
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sometimes you might crash & burn.
but when you look to better days, it really isn't all that bad. your life just seems so much brighter when you don't look at all the dark corners.
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NEVER GIVE UP ON THE GOOD TIMES.
living isn't living unless you live life to the fullest. if that means getting burned- so be it. if that means taking risks- so be it. you do whatever it is you think is right for YOU. don't care about what anyone else thinks of you. you only live ONCE. and life is short. with just one shot, of course you're going to fail. but why do we fall? so that we can learn how to get back up again. that's just how it is. we live once, then we die. when life is over, you're going to look back and regret what you didn't do.
so whatever you do- do it without regrets. that way, you'll feel happy with your life the way it is.
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| - -- d e d i c a t e d t o h i m . partone ; I can't not try
Cuz you're the only guy
I ever truly needed,
Nothing can change that
It's just my inner feelin', uh
Boy you're the only one i see
That could ever complete me
And my existence
Everything i do is for you baby
And i know my love won't
Withstand no resistance I must confess, i'm sorry
But you're still my baby
I can't stop loving you
And it's driving me crazy
All i wanna do is undo the past
And if i could do it again
Then i'd make it last
Cuz we're supposed to be,
It should be you and me
Nobody else could ever
Take your place in my life.
Baby, you’re still my everything
You're all my hopes and dreams
All that i could ever live for
Gabriel Zakcery Malt,
I'm lovin' you forevermore. [Chorus]
It's just emotion's takin' me over
Caught up in sorrow, lost in my soul
But if you don't come back,
Come home to me darling
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world
To hold me tight..
Nobody left in this world to kiss good night.. The day that you were mine
I thought i'd never find
Someone more divine
Who i could love and cherish
For the rest of my life
Yeah, i thought you was the one
Before, love was just for fun
But that was before you came along
When you entered my life
My heart started singin' a different song And yes, i made some mistakes
Some so great they'll be hard not to forsake
But if you just gave me that chance
To fulfill our sweet romance,
Continue our last dance,
I know i'd be the person
To fulfill your hopes and dreams
I swear there can't be no other
Who'll love you like me
Not sayin' to be mean but
I really do believe that
We were meant to be
Baby till the end, you and me
I know its naive
But that ain't gonna change the fact
That i still love you baby
And that i want you back. [Chorus] Yeah, i know all the time that
Things are changing
We can't help that baby,
That love keeps rearranging
But i know that this one thing is true
When i first met you
I saw that childish gleam
You're still priceless to me
I know i'm still your "maganda princess"
You know its meant to be
Baby, it's me & you, H & Z,
This i hope & pray you'll see
Baby it's only a matter of time
For you to change your mind
Till then i'm lovin' you
With all i got for you inside. - m s ` h a m b z . | | |
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